So, um, hi. Yo yo yo, sup home slices?
Did I actually just say that? *looks shifty*
I figured I should mouth off here before the Xmas holiday officially goes full bore this week, because I might not have time or internet after that happens until near New Years Eve.
You know when worlds collide and things get so crazy that you just aren't quite sure what to do with yourself? That's where I've been. And I worry that maybe I've let some people down along the way for different reasons just because of the ... well, the crazy. And I sincerely hope I haven't.
This last year has been full of trials and tribulations for all of us, myself included, and I guess coming head-on into the holidays, missing my mom IRL and dealing with the RL deployment of my husband to the middle east for a year took more of a toll on me than I was willing to admit. So, the closer we inch to Christmas, although I am surrounded in my virtual life with all my amazing friends, at the end of the day I'm still missing my mom and RL Mr. B.
I'm going to the eastern US for Xmas holiday with my sister and her family, so I can have some Christmas magic with her two little ones who are four and six and still very into Santa Claus and Frosty and Rudolph and cookies and elves and playing in the snow, even if they're both starting to also be into Nintendo Wii and Ipod Shuffle and other more grownup gadgetry. Hopefully that'll help the holiday go by with no major incidents.
In the meantime, I've been dealing with some doctors and waiting to get some info back on a series of tests I'm having done regarding my risk factor for the cancer that took my mom, so that's been kind of hanging over my head for the last two months or so while we've been having them all done. I haven't said anything about it because all the doctors are saying it's a very small chance I carry the gene and am at risk for it, but it's still something that weighs heavily on my mind. This time of year, last year, my mom was sick already. And was trying to tell us she wasn't sick. So I just have a lot of memories of last year, and the anniversary of when I packed up to go take care of her. As a result of that, I've been piling RL work on top of myself, sometimes working at 5-6am, sometimes working at 11pm to midnight, just filling the time when I can't sleep or can't get adjusted.
So, when I get into SL, I've either been in and out, trying to stay caught up on things, or focusing on silly things like trying to sort through my now 17,000 item inventory (ahh, content creation -- the bane of an inventory). I have worked on a couple of custom jewelry projects for friends, have been setting up house with Eirik, Isadora, Boni and Raeyn (and Sid, Helix and Matt) on our new sim Four Corners, and have been blessed with friends and a wonderful partner who have whisked me off on hunts or stamp card rallies or anything else that can just distract me for a while from everything that's going on.
I have so many things I want to blog about -- the folks at Fleur have been so busy introducing new and re-introducing familiar things to their line, and I'm a CSA there now so I normally would be spending a couple of hours a week at the store hopefully running into some of you -- I didn't get to last week and I might not this week but I should be back in the swing of things when I get back from my Xmas trip on the 30th. Just in time for New Years.
I've picked up some fabbo new clothes from stores like Subtle Submission, Zaara, Pixel Dolls, and haven't had the time or inclination to blog any of them. And hello, shoes from SLink plus some stores on these hunts and stuff that have made my day with their adorable clunky maryjanes.
I've been a furry polar bear, a Bilby rat, two different kinds of bunny, and a bowl of soup. I got an amazing gift of beautiful hair for Yule that I need to show everybody, I bought ETD and CS out of their hairs when they were all on sale (and I believe ETD still is), I've been DJ'ing even more than normal filling in for my folks since they were so patient with me while I was getting ready for Mr. B. to leave ...
I've been stalking flickr and your blogs even if I haven't been commenting all that much, just to try to keep up with all of you and what's going on.
So, if it seems like I've been quiet or I haven't quite got my crap together, that's because I haven't quite got my crap together. But I'm sure trying to adjust.
This morning, I'm off to the doctor to have something checked out before I travel for the holiday and maybe I'll treat myself to a coffee on the way home -- I took the week off of RL work to have time to pack and get ready for my trip and chill out a little bit, so ... maybe I will find you inworld.
Thanks for being my friends and thanks for being so understanding. Eventually I'll figure out what's going on. 
